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January 18th, 2005 | Category: State of Mind, Watching/Listening

My God, does a song have power.

I’m listening to Beck’s “Lost Cause” from Sea Change, his break-up album. I used to listen to this song while working in the basement at United, on a staticky, ancient radio that was only set to XRT.

I loved when this song would come on because it was one of the few times that I let myself admit that my life as it was sure wasn’t working. The person I lived with didn’t want me there, I hated my job and I didn’t really have any friends. And sometimes, it’s hard to admit that shit to yourself, unaided, arhythmically.

The webbity is back. I’m going to update it more. Here’s why:

1) I’m getting married this fall. Don’t worry. It won’t turn into a lamer bride blog thing.

2) I’m trying harder at life.

3) Because it’s my blog, you know? And I don’t like letting things die.

And how have you been?

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  1. LM Deanne January 18th, 2005 9:17 pm

    Good to see you back!
    I’ve been great… but I guess I’m leaving this great behind for Chicago. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s the “quit while you’re ahead” theory and that I’ll make great in Chicago, too. I mean, it’s great there, right? Right?

  2. brian January 19th, 2005 12:42 pm

    You know, I was pretty convinced that Chicago was going to suck when I moved back. I wasn’t looking forward to it much as I was really happy with my life in SF, even if I was undoubtedly unhappy.

    I got through it. There are things about SF that I like a lot better than Chicago. There are also things in Chicago I like a lot better in SF, and in the end, it’s cool to change your horizon. And no, it’s not the end of the world. You can get used to anything and even really enjoy it.