u s e y o u r h a n d s

Pre-pregnancy, I’d read blogs or listen to friends talk about their plans for parenthood. Most of these people cited how they were planning on following their instincts. And I’d laugh and chime in about how if you didn’t have good role models, you should not, at all, ever, for a second, follow your own instincts.

I mean, why would you, if you were raised by “All My Children”, crinkle-cut fries from a bag and screaming. I always thought that it would behoove one (raised in such environs) to, say, do some reading on the topic of child development and see what educated opinions resonated. And so, as I’ve been pregnant, I’ve raided the shelves of several public libraries for books where some sense can be had.

I’ve also been interested to see how my instincts and intuition has started to come out. I guess the years of therapy and reflection have been beneficial, because none of my instincts show up as do-not-dos in any books. But I’m surprised. Maybe i shouldn’t be. I’ve picked a good partner. We’re comfortable. And I’ve done a lot of personal work for the past decade.

Hopefully, it will be enough.